how does it feel?

suddenly.. i wonder.. how does it feel.. if u were alone..

doing everything by yourself.. live alone.. have your breakfast alone.. making dinner n having dinner by your own.. watching movies by your own.. laugh on your own when there's joke.. tears on your own when there's sad moments.. anger on your own when there's irritating part..

especially when u r celebrating an event by your own.. though there's so many people around you.. but that just didn't wash away your loneliness..

how does it feels..

and to make it even worse.. you have people around you.. yet.. you decide to be alone.. spent you time alone.. doing things alone.. celebrate on your own.. laughing alone.. crying alone.. pissing alone..

how does it feels...

things i wanna do..

rite now.. there's either two things dat i really2 wanna do..

( 1 )

go on vacation to some island or resort and having some peace.. near beach.. xpun main air terjun.. so refreshing.. xpun g langkawi.. pn ok jgak.. blh mandi kat tasik dayang bunting..

or

( 2 )

pegi kat kawasan yg luasnya sekitar 1-2hektar yg semak samun.. nk buatpe? main tanah n bersihkan awasan tu smpi jd padang jarak padang tekukur.. pastu semak2 yg dh d potong/ tebas/ pape jelah.. kumpul2 pastu bakar.. pastu lepak2 kat tepi pembakaran tuh.. bau asap bakar rumput tuh.. lpak2 tgk kawasan yg sblumnye semak samun skrg dh lapang..

best x?

thoughts...

"Ilmu pengetahuan bukan ciptaan manusia, tetapi rahsia takdir Ilahi yang diberikan-Nya kepada manusia. Oleh itu manusia tidak harus berlaku sombong dengan ilmu pengetahuan yang dimiliki; malah sepatutnya bersyukur"
- Hamka -